uncertainty

Sun shines down on me
to counteract with the wind
the sun-warmed bricks
feel rough beneath my skin
as I sit wondering
how I feel
I'm still not sure
but I can tell
it's time to keep
moving along

Is anyone out there?

Because if they are I can't tell,

Feeling more than a little alone

And there's no way to know

When the feeling will fade

Because I'm determined to wait

And you don't care, don't notice

So I'm the one that hurts.

& what not

Obviously I'm a little bored- here are some pictures I edited from after Kemper's baby blessing and one of me that I just liked. Nothing terribly exciting going on, I just need to pack for vienna.

A week in satus updates

Anne already wants to get on facebook
Anne does not want to lift weights
Anne is kind of a whiny brat, I should work on that
Anne thinks that tattoos are crazy
Anne wishes her life was more adventerous
Anne needs to find something productive to do
Anne wishes it were tomorrow
Anne is kind of a liar
Anne has a good weekend
Anne-time seemes to be going slower and faster all at once...its disorienting
Anne can't wait it get out of here
Anne wishes she had friends
Anne is trying not to cry
Anne is longest week ever
Anne is no I'm not happy but youll never know


Websites I've been going too
Blogger-not updated as often so getting on a lot isn't as exciting
FML-funny, not always appropriate
Yahoo-been writing in my notepad
also a lot of solitare....I need a hobby


Ok so it has been a week since I've gotten on facebook ok maybe in a few hours it will have been, but you get the idea. K so I decided to go on facebook...just to see what it looked like if there were reactions you know# of notifications=12 messages=2 it was all just genaric. Facebook missed as a bordom buster but really I'm fine without it. I wish no one knew this blog were here but people do so I cant say whats on my mind

Facebook Stalking

Seriously recently I've thought of deleting my Facebook, it may help me talk to a few people but most of my "friends" are people i didn't even talk to when I knew them-so I don't care what they are doing. On occasion I talk to a few people but mostly not-I mean if people want to talk to me there is AIM or good old e-mail, even snail mail. No facebook for me is a time waster. Its a way to snoop on people. Come on everyone does it. You notice someone's status it seems off so you go to there page and try and figure out whats wrong by past statuses. Random people you had sort of met once but you didn't want to offend by rejecting them ask you advice. You become nervous about something so you compare peoples pages to see how they correspond. You notice something-wait were they together? why? Seriously facebook lately has just been a distraction and makes me stress out and freak out. I think I might go on a hiatus from facebook, see if I even last a week- I doubt it I'm too caught up it has really sucked me in. Even now I'm tempted to go back and look at it, see whats going on look at random photos, read the junk on pieces of flair. My bordom and natural well nosyness is driving me insane right now. Often my snooping just leads to questions I don't want to ask. Maybe this is all just me and I've become slightly odd...and more obsessive. I don't like my self like this, it's not who I usually am. I think I might try and last the whole summer. Everyone facebook stalks, but it doesn't mean it's right or healthy. K done with my rant for now. hopefully my heart with stop racing with suspision my mind stop asking questions I know I don't really want the answer too even if I had the right to ask.

ok Hiatus starts in 5 minutes after I tell everyone on fb that I'm doing a hiatus >_<

apparently I dont post quickly its the 18th

Defining Loser:

Is a loser that girl
that sits in public
with a suitcase?

Is a loser that girl
smushed between
a dog and her boyfriend?

Is a loser that girl
that almost always
takes control?

Is a loser that girl
that nearly walked out
an emergency exit?
Is a loser that girl
that is sitting in
my chair?

Ode to Papers
double-spaced
12 point font

MLA or APA
whatever they want
narrative or research
10 pages or 1
whatever it is
it isn't fun.



Wrappers
first you loop
then you tuck
next you pull
and wish for luck
think of a name
a special boy
or girl
and if the knot stays
they're not thinking
of you.
Some say it how
you tie it
that its nothing to do
with them
but I,
I
know the truth
its in the knot,
its in your eyes.

April Already

Semesters gone by really fast, soon I'll be done with finals and just a little time until I get to go to Vienna. Which in case you haven't noticed I'm really excited for. Hopefully before hand though I'll be able to head out to Colorado to visit my sister, brother-in-law and nephew. Ok really I'm going to visit my nephew his parents will just be there....well sort of it'll be nice to see them too. I've started to notice lately how completely uninteresting watching sports is as I'm writing this watching a volleyball game. Sean interrupts here: Get used to it. whatever. I'm totally used to it I will just never find it interesting....
Things of note at the moment. Not to much I'm just bored and trying to take up time. Well someone did get me sick this week so I only left my apartment once from the time I left church early on Sunday until Wednesday morning and that was to purchase juice meds and tissues. But for all of those that keep asking about that red-head that is in all those pictures he was nice and brought me soup. But that did not miraculously cure me as he so thinks. (Sean-it did) Yeah in high school I loved missing school it was more or less amazing, missing classes now basically sucks, you feel pretty behind pretty quickly-or at least I did.
Other things of note would be stealing so I'll let someone else talk about them. Or they are still underwraps.

Boredom
T.V. mixes with
bickering and exclamations
the light gives the room
an unkempt feel
sometimes the people
make it tense
akward comments
constant questions
and an overall ability
to just be

annoying.