waiting

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which is better?(make an assessment)

I hope your new year was grand. I don't make reslutions often but this year mine is to be more open. What are yours?

new

We are so different

Why do I have to be young

why do you have to be old

neither of us knows life well

when it gets right down to it

we are both so young
we are both so wrong

we are so headstrong





Why do I have to be impatient
why do you have to be hyper
none of it means anything
when it gets right down to it
I am so obsesive
you are so oblivious
we are so original



Why do I have to be the newbie
why do you have to teach me
next time we'll be lost again
when it gets right down to it
we are both so fresh
we are both so rash
we are so posh



Why do I have to be wrong
why do you have to be right
never have two be so different
when it gets right down to it
I am so uncomplaining
you are so unassuming
we are so unsure







old

Spots and Stripes


the tears fall to the ground
as you look at me in disgust
and say it will never change
i will never be different
and how can it ever end
if its just the way i am

a leopard cant change its spots
a zebra always has is stripes
i am tied to my fickle heart
how can i be anything
anything but alone
if i cant ever change


but you are wrong, this time
for one i can change my ways
and me and the leopard and zebra
well cast off our patterns
and live our lives freely
i just need to meet one



sorry it wasnt you


Bright Red

cold wind
against my face
my arm
meets the door
i trip
a teasing smile
fast pluse
mixed up words
soft touch
a shared glance




for such dark skin
you blush an awful lot

Can't wait

Jealous yet? Well I'm spending 3 months in the country shown above. Its Austria!!!!! More specifically Vienna, with 2 weeks in the Alps!!! If you can't tell I'm just a little excited! Its going to cost me an arm and a leg, but its so worth it!

I'm also really excited for break! 2 glorious weeks of no homework, or school period and I get to spend it in one of my favorite places MD! Just one week of classes a paper a video and 5 finals to go.....no sweat, well a test in German too but really who counts that?

New

face meet bangs

bangs meet clip

i win.

door meet arm

arm meet bruise

i lose.

boy meet girl

girl meet bliss

i win.

Old

Running Away

the smudged black eyeliner

kind of looks like bruising

breath harder

run faster

reality is catching up to you

clammy hands

goose bump legs

it feels like a fever

and looks like a crush

soon you'll see what it really is

its the realization

that you failed again

that you hurt someone else

as your attention turns

to someone new

its the reaction

to the harsh remark

that you'll get bored soon

that it will never be the last time

its the way you are

its the hope you feel

that this is the end

but you cant help but wonder

if youll break someone new

if you cant ever change.

Push harder

run father

dont ever look back

maybe its possible to

ignore reality.

Long day

New

People Watching
That man that was
trying to be
invisable
just beggd me
to look at him
in his blue shirt
and blue jeans
the bag in his hand
with the dark blue
design
seemingly bright
next to his
dark countanance
looking down
with a bag on his back
of the backpack variety
i simply stared
to see if he'd look up


the girl with
the bare feet
mockingly
looked at me
with her book
and turquiose turtleneck
because i sat there
doing nothing
i dont like to leave that much
mess visable in a
public area
or take off my shoes
maybe flip flops
but not flats



the lady with the
marrie calandar dinner
caught me
looking at her,
but i couldnt help
glancing back whenever
she wasnt looking
it was discusting
yet fasinating
as she stirred
her potatos with
her finger
and scooped them
into her mouth
maybe it was the supreme
look of joy
on her face after
each bite
i couldnt help thinking
if i had brought that
id have brought
a fork.

it ammused me that
he had a slimfast
as i stood there
to nuke my burger
since he was
standing there
waiting to put in
a hot pocket
but then
i couldnt help overhearing
him telling
the missus
it was chocolate milk
so he actually likes
that crap?
well the irony is still
pleasing.

Old

Faulty Surgeon

I never saw his degree
And he wasn't very nice
I guess I was desperate
Tired of being made of ice.

He didn't put me under
He didn't have a nurse,
But I laid down anyways
Like I was falling into a curse.

He said we'd have to insert coal
Melt me from the inside
He said I'd feel better,
But I'm pretty sure he lied.

A knife was placed in my hand
Told to tear the flesh apart
With sudden horror I realized
I was slicing open my own heart.

He placed the white-hot coal
And quickly took a needle to my skin
Now I have an ugly scar
And a harsh burning within.

Now I feel everything
No longer made of ice,
But I'm not sure if it was worth it,
These feelings aren't very nice.