Nanny diary: entry 9

I know your probably thinking but your au pair family is in Turkey and you are not working for a month! how can you have a nanny entry.

list of things I did after the family left

-took a bath

-bought milk//chocolate cereal

-went out

-resumed my old eating habits

list of things I need to do

-work out daily

-look at my options for next year

-finish that stupid blanket

-focus on improving my german

-find more answers

random fact:

I will probably blog less

I've noticed having a life leads to a less strong desire to talk about it

Quote:only a life lived for others is a life worthwhile

Just a note

don't gasp with food in your mouth

it will get stuck at the top of your esophagus

it will be unconfortable

random fact:

I make decisions quickly

quote:

it's not easy being green

This is my favourite place

this is a foot bridge that crosses from about konigstrasse(the big ped shopping street) to schlossgarten. Where it is exceptionally beautiful.
this is what I can see from this bridge. It's hard to tell but I find it breathtaking. For some reason Im always amazed by the city by what man puts together as civilization. especially when it has to bow down to nature like it does here in this rather mountainous area.

And what you also can't tell from these pictures is how awesome it is to stand here. I could feel everything. The wheels of a bike a person jogging just people walking. Also you can do excellent people watching here.

you know how some people watching makes you worry for humanity....not here.

I see old couples holding hands as well as young. People being healthy going out jogging or riding bikes. I saw someone pick up some trash off the ground. and I saw other people just stop.

Sometimes we need to slow down and just look at life for what it is...or we'll miss it all.

Random facts:

I'm really giggly

I should really not be allowed to talk most days

the fact that I can't really find a path or just stick to what Im doing concerns me

always looking ahead but never knowing to where

I hate the feeling of butterflies in my stomach because it makes me feel out of control

quote:do all things with love

A tribute to my head

and no not my hair which is on my head as those of you that know me know Im quite vain about it

more whats in my head

and no not how smart I think I am and those of you that know me know I dont think Im that smart.

But the ache that has been there....FOR THREE YEARS.

it's march the headache that I have had since the spring of my junior year of high school has now been there continuely for three years. yes thats one headache one single solitary headache that only went away for 2 weeks about 3 years ago when I went on my college visit to byu....maybe thats how I ended up there ;)

I hate this head ache

sometimes its just there and I dont really notice unless I think about it

so I try not to

somedays it turns into a migrane

at which point I take my heavy duty meds to make it go back to its almost gone state

too bad I hate doctors and could never follow through on going back maybe I would have figured out what was wrong....doubt it

heres to three wonderful years of life that have been plagued by kopfschmerzen

random fact..I'm almost always tired

especially if I just traveled

quote:advertisements contain the only truths to be relied on in a newspaper

Have you ever

been eating lunch and then heard something that sounded like gun fire outside? Then thought oh no that can't be right...but then heard screaming and more gun fire? Did you then proceed to go to the hallway cause it was safer and wait till you heard sirens to look outside?

Have you ever seen a dead body from your (or host moms) bedroom window? Did you know that blood kind of looks fake on pavement? or that 2 hours later it would seem like nothing happened.

people are weird.

random facts:

erk threw a fit today...

I usually feel like I am annoying people

I generally agree with the statement out of sight out of mind when it comes to me.

quote:

big sisters are the crab grass in the lawn of life

I love you big sister :] and this quote is for you!

Childhood anecdote

because my childhood is over even if I'm not an adult yet(which I'm not don't tell me I need to act like one!) Seriously I'm dreading losing the it's cause I'm a teenage girl excuse.

Ok so for as long as I can remember I've been a sharer not like selfless but I share. Like I get a goody I immediately share some. So if you are my friend you possibly get to eat a lot of chocolate.

When I was little whenever I got a treat I always shared some with my sister, or my parents or at least asked like 20 times if they wanted any. I never feel satisfied in something that I feel is good if I think I'm the only one experiencing it.

which is why when Erk freaks out if anyone takes any of "his" treats I just don't get it.

like if is dad uses some of his mango sauce

or his grandma gives me a piece of kiwi he's eating

or if his mom tells me to have a piece of cake in the kitchen

or share...well anything.

seriously? why don't people share its nice

Share the goodness

Random facts:

I cross my toes when I sleep

I have a hard time sleeping

it's snowing here--this is wrong

I can't keep secrets about myself

quote:

I don't know the key to success, but the key to failure is trying to please everybody.

Nanny diary: entry 8

Oh my faithful readers(which comes to about 4) I have woefully neglected my nanny life. You may wonder how if you knew thats basically all I do.

I work on average 9 hours a day (legal limit=6)

I have had 3 days off since I started(one I really worked the other 2 I basically blacked mailed for)

but honestly my host family needs me that much. sick kids working dad.

and soon I have a month alone.

can I tell you that life is a lot easier now that erk actually wants to be with me like he gets excited to see me wants me for certain things...it took time but now its here.

I'm starting to love the kids...so lets hope it will be a good 10 or so(possibly staying longer cause of visa issues) more months.

my class started I've met some new people...life is good

Random facts:

I took off my non-commital rings

I got really lost today

I think I know what I'm going to do next year

if you can guess Ill send you haribo(you won't guess)

Quote:

"Remember that God is always on speed dial when you need him."-Elder Michael Brown.

Ever wonder

Who reads your blog? like everyone. I mean I'll have friends that tell me they read it and I'm always like oh s***(yes I swear) why did you do that....that's where I reveal how weird I am. I mean seriously sometimes I want to make my blog private cause I want to know who is out there stalking me.....apparently I mind more if my friends are reading my blog than my old yw leaders(who are also friends) but seriously....I'm random--not everyone knows that.

random facts:

Ive never felt like Im supposed to go on a mission even when reading my patriartical blessing.

never take the last train

If I feel like someone is angry(no matter the reason) I keep apoligizing I hate for people to be upset and it makes me feel bad

I need to get my arse in gear and find schools.

no quote today...to overwhelmed with 19 yr old life