habits

Are really hard to change and not the ones you know you have but the ones that just are.

take me for example--I'm a sloucher. And its bad. Now I'm attempting to sit up straight I have to think about it all the time and it takes quite a bit of concentration and honestly it kind of hurts.

this isnt a new years resolution a goal or anything its just something for me, because slouching is ugly because its just better to sit up straight.

I miss having my piano. I wish I could practice I wish I had practiced more when I was little I don't regret not regret is silly I can't change it and I've learned from it. I need to write more. Mostly I just need motivation. I need to stop being an au pair it sucks Im sick of dealing with my host parents they dont think about how what they say and how they say it will affect me.

ok lifes good and Ive got nothing else to say for now.

corny

I'm pretty bad with corny, I usually call someone out when they are being corny. Sometimes I can be corny and I call myself out in my head. I'm not quite sure why it bothers me so much but it does...I mean its kind of lame nice sweet but lame.

It may just be that it goes against my sarcastic cynical nature and if you don't think I'm those things than you don't really know me and have fallen prey to my sweet outer appearance. Shade;)

Today I'm sitting in my chair instead of using it as a coat rack, because I'm actually writing. I have three projects open..plus this I'm bad at concentrating thats not how my mind works. My friend just told me that I was a true writer. I also get the munchies mmmm.

quote (rough translation from german but its an english quote)

after a good meal you can forgive anything even your own relatives.

Thumbs

This is a general poll--How large is your thumb? Lets say in vergleich with your pinky.... comparison I meant comparison (side note I can spell that in german...not in english)

Apparently I have an abnormally large thumb. My thumb is as large as my pinkysee? also taking this picture was ridiculously hard.

So is youre thumb large? are you regreting clicking on this post or will you give it a thumbs up?

The Proverbial Glass

Ok so the age old question do you see the glass as half empty or half full? I felt like sharing my full answer as it is very telling about my personality

Do you know how rarely a glass is exactly half full/empty its usually slightly more empty or full or in a glass that makes it seem like it is (larger bottom or top) or I've just seen it being filled (half full) or being drunken out of (half empty) or maybe theres water clinging to the top where it is clearly being emptied.

but I suppose if I walked up to a perfectly symmetrical glass that was somehow exactly at the halfway mark....I'd have to say it was half empty because WHO fills a glass halfway...now that thats depressing. Unless it were a sunny spring day then I might say it were half full.

yeah I know I think far too much but hey thats who I am

Expectations

I know that my last post is entitled new year same anne but am I? am I really the same girl? Am I the girl everyone expected me to be? Have you ever thought about that? Cause you know your parents and basically a million other people have certain expectations about who they think you'll be when youre all grown heck even a year from now.

On the top of my blog it states that I'm trying to find where home is for me and truthfully Im also trying to find just me plain and simple. Except its not trying to figure out who I am is not only difficult but confusing and strange. So I'm trying to find me and figure out what I want which is not plain or simple I've no idea what I'm doing with my life and not even sure of how or where I want to do it. And just when I get it figured out something happens and life...it changes again.

And now for any of you that wish to say that you have no expectations for me--ya you do without knowing it you do and thats life--but what if I don't live up to them if I'm not the girl you thought I'd be...what then

and what do I expect from me? will I dissapoint myself?

New Year Same Anne

Ok so if you know me really well you know I think new years resolutions are total crap--but that I make them anyways because I'm a push over so here they are

-excercise daily

-write daily

SO I come home in about 4 ish months and I've been here A YEAR but yeah no big deal. Oh so I've been realizing that I miss home and I'm excited to gt back to the states but I'll probably be happy to be there all of a month. I love Germany i can already see tons of things I will miss

-bakeries

-public trans

-being able to use german

-mineral water

-good german food

-cafes

-schlossplatz//garten

-good fresh produce

-the quiet

-the chocolate

But the states...I miss american chinese food and some people. I don't miss anything there that makes the country special so I'm excited to see everyone and to stop being a nanny but I'm not excited to leave and you can be certain that I'm going to find a way back--somehow.