Taylor and Photos

Ok so first off Taylor Swifts new album Speak Now came out...and its awesome some of the songs are a bit more sad but mostly for me its the same stuff I love about her songs--they just make you happy I really like taylor swift because she isnt afraid to show who she is a quality I highly respect and revere.

Ok so next these are pictures of Lara who turned one on tuesday I tried to focus on the positive negative space...don't you guys already feel bad for my future kids :)

it was truely a beautiful day

Heut ist so ein schonen Tag

happy halloween all.

Out of touch

Thats what I feel
out of touch
with friends
with family
with life
with me
with this blog


seriously no one talks to me...which is lame and don't feel bad...or too bad
I mean its hard Im 6-8 hours ahead of you guys not even my family talks to me that often.
but I literally had a near-death experience and no one said anything about it.

I've been so busy lately hanging out with friends and just running around doing stuff I feel a bit out of touch with me I haven't really had time to just chill by myself or even enough time to do everything I want to.

I've changed a lot over the past year and I don't feel like I always get the time to learn about myself.

so heres a question how do I get back in touch? how do I feel less disconnected?

How can I feel like Im in limbo in my own mind....

In Touch

So everyone in our house got sick over the past week but I didn't really notice that I was sick until yesterday when I finally had a chance to slow down. Honestly I should have realize it I went to bed at 9 two nights in a row there's been a definite lack of appetite. But yesterday I finally had a chance to slow down and almost fell asleep against a cabinet. But then suddenly I felt a prompting that I needed to take my temperature-so I did. I had a fever but it wasn't that high I told the other ladies that I needed to go to bed. But its a really good thing that I didn't just go to bed. Just a few hours later my fever had risen to 103.1 my friends that I had been consulting told me I had to find medicine right then! so I went and talked to the ladies so I could get some meds.

as a side note one of them also made me random teas and wrapped my feet in vinegar soaked cloths and tried to get me to eat a whole onion.

Ok so then I went to sleep but today my fever went back up really high and I went into the doctor and apparently my throat is all inflamed and they prescribed some meds but I don't recall ever having had such a high fever before so it kind of scares me

also what scares me is that if I had ignored those feelings and just went to bed last night....

Now I'm much better no reason for alarm