Chestnuts roasting on an open fire

Those are actually really good

Jack frost nipping at your nose--you know he is a personification of winter?

yule tide carols being sung by a choir--or you know just that crazy chick

and folks dressed up like eskimos--cute

in other news it's nearly christmas which is exciting and a bit sad. Im almost done with christmas shopping I just want to get a couple books for my au pair kids. But most my shopping was done like a while ago since it had to be sent back to the states...ok I have a couple gifts that wont get sent till after the holidays since I was going to get them in Nurnburg.

Im hoping to buy my plane ticket next month so then people can officially start counting down to when I come home instead of just a vague general idea that keeps changing

So even though I love Germany--I wish I were home for christmas and I wish I was going back to school next semester I miss it I miss being a student its like completely awesome! But its weird to think of where I was a year ago going to visit my mom in the hospital in Denver and then my sister in Durango it doesn't seem that long ago. But so many things have changed I know things back home have changed a lot but honestly so have I. I think many of you will be surprised by this when I get back home. I'm more confident, more comfortable in my own skin, and a bit more outgoing. My motto has kind of come to be just own it! cause you are who you are no excuses or apologies. Yes I'm kind of a dork and on occasion a bit too impulsive and unpredictable but I like who I am and I'm happy I get the chance to develop and round out my personality through these amazing experiences I'm having that are based on impulsive decisions. I think with my heart a lot and I like that.

Ok quick messages to my family

Dad-Thanks for supporting my craziness and being there for me when I need you. Thank you for keeping a spot open for me in your life. Little things here will remind me of you and make me smile. I wish you could come visit me since I know it'd be exciting to be here again. Good luck with school next semester!

Mom-Thanks for thinking about me so often and all of your support. Thanks to you I always have my eyes out for bunnies :) Miss you I'll be home soon!

Beth-I miss you so much I wish I could see you this christmas and I hope you like your gift! I hope that the holiday is super fun for you I bet your excited to see kempers face christmas morning! I know I would be. Talk to you soon

Granny--Thank you for your support and concern I hope you know that I apprieciate all that you have done to help me in my life. Have a beautiful christmas.

And a happy new year.

Baby it's cold outside

So sometimes my friends will just give me a look that says--wow you're young and I just want to say OF COURSE I AM. I've always been mature for my age and thats not bragging it's just true. A lot of people forget that I'm still really young because of what I'm doing and what my personality is like, but I'm twenty. Sometimes I want to be crazy and stupid and young and immature because well I'm twenty. A few months ago I was still a teenager, I'm still going through college, I still have many crazy years left in me. So don't put me in a box and let me screw up without giving me a look that says I'm not who you thought I was. Because I'm always me and one of those things is young--we are learning our whole lives and well I'm further behind than many of you.

dear Friendernets

I feel that Ive been neglecting you horribly why those of you that only read my blog wouldn't know that I recently(ie a month ago) cut off all my hair

see its cute. I still forget I have short hair but I really like it although I may have picked the wrong time to do it

also its been snowing here! Like crazy It feels like the end of December not the beginning.

Also its crazy that its December I've almost been here a year! I realize that some of you make think back to my older posts and say shouldn't her next sentence be like Also I come home in a month? sadly no I'm still here for another few months but its defiantly winding down.

and life goes on..bis bald!