Thumbs

This is a general poll--How large is your thumb? Lets say in vergleich with your pinky.... comparison I meant comparison (side note I can spell that in german...not in english)

Apparently I have an abnormally large thumb. My thumb is as large as my pinkysee? also taking this picture was ridiculously hard.

So is youre thumb large? are you regreting clicking on this post or will you give it a thumbs up?

The Proverbial Glass

Ok so the age old question do you see the glass as half empty or half full? I felt like sharing my full answer as it is very telling about my personality

Do you know how rarely a glass is exactly half full/empty its usually slightly more empty or full or in a glass that makes it seem like it is (larger bottom or top) or I've just seen it being filled (half full) or being drunken out of (half empty) or maybe theres water clinging to the top where it is clearly being emptied.

but I suppose if I walked up to a perfectly symmetrical glass that was somehow exactly at the halfway mark....I'd have to say it was half empty because WHO fills a glass halfway...now that thats depressing. Unless it were a sunny spring day then I might say it were half full.

yeah I know I think far too much but hey thats who I am

Expectations

I know that my last post is entitled new year same anne but am I? am I really the same girl? Am I the girl everyone expected me to be? Have you ever thought about that? Cause you know your parents and basically a million other people have certain expectations about who they think you'll be when youre all grown heck even a year from now.

On the top of my blog it states that I'm trying to find where home is for me and truthfully Im also trying to find just me plain and simple. Except its not trying to figure out who I am is not only difficult but confusing and strange. So I'm trying to find me and figure out what I want which is not plain or simple I've no idea what I'm doing with my life and not even sure of how or where I want to do it. And just when I get it figured out something happens and life...it changes again.

And now for any of you that wish to say that you have no expectations for me--ya you do without knowing it you do and thats life--but what if I don't live up to them if I'm not the girl you thought I'd be...what then

and what do I expect from me? will I dissapoint myself?

New Year Same Anne

Ok so if you know me really well you know I think new years resolutions are total crap--but that I make them anyways because I'm a push over so here they are

-excercise daily

-write daily

SO I come home in about 4 ish months and I've been here A YEAR but yeah no big deal. Oh so I've been realizing that I miss home and I'm excited to gt back to the states but I'll probably be happy to be there all of a month. I love Germany i can already see tons of things I will miss

-bakeries

-public trans

-being able to use german

-mineral water

-good german food

-cafes

-schlossplatz//garten

-good fresh produce

-the quiet

-the chocolate

But the states...I miss american chinese food and some people. I don't miss anything there that makes the country special so I'm excited to see everyone and to stop being a nanny but I'm not excited to leave and you can be certain that I'm going to find a way back--somehow.

Chestnuts roasting on an open fire

Those are actually really good

Jack frost nipping at your nose--you know he is a personification of winter?

yule tide carols being sung by a choir--or you know just that crazy chick

and folks dressed up like eskimos--cute

in other news it's nearly christmas which is exciting and a bit sad. Im almost done with christmas shopping I just want to get a couple books for my au pair kids. But most my shopping was done like a while ago since it had to be sent back to the states...ok I have a couple gifts that wont get sent till after the holidays since I was going to get them in Nurnburg.

Im hoping to buy my plane ticket next month so then people can officially start counting down to when I come home instead of just a vague general idea that keeps changing

So even though I love Germany--I wish I were home for christmas and I wish I was going back to school next semester I miss it I miss being a student its like completely awesome! But its weird to think of where I was a year ago going to visit my mom in the hospital in Denver and then my sister in Durango it doesn't seem that long ago. But so many things have changed I know things back home have changed a lot but honestly so have I. I think many of you will be surprised by this when I get back home. I'm more confident, more comfortable in my own skin, and a bit more outgoing. My motto has kind of come to be just own it! cause you are who you are no excuses or apologies. Yes I'm kind of a dork and on occasion a bit too impulsive and unpredictable but I like who I am and I'm happy I get the chance to develop and round out my personality through these amazing experiences I'm having that are based on impulsive decisions. I think with my heart a lot and I like that.

Ok quick messages to my family

Dad-Thanks for supporting my craziness and being there for me when I need you. Thank you for keeping a spot open for me in your life. Little things here will remind me of you and make me smile. I wish you could come visit me since I know it'd be exciting to be here again. Good luck with school next semester!

Mom-Thanks for thinking about me so often and all of your support. Thanks to you I always have my eyes out for bunnies :) Miss you I'll be home soon!

Beth-I miss you so much I wish I could see you this christmas and I hope you like your gift! I hope that the holiday is super fun for you I bet your excited to see kempers face christmas morning! I know I would be. Talk to you soon

Granny--Thank you for your support and concern I hope you know that I apprieciate all that you have done to help me in my life. Have a beautiful christmas.

And a happy new year.

Baby it's cold outside

So sometimes my friends will just give me a look that says--wow you're young and I just want to say OF COURSE I AM. I've always been mature for my age and thats not bragging it's just true. A lot of people forget that I'm still really young because of what I'm doing and what my personality is like, but I'm twenty. Sometimes I want to be crazy and stupid and young and immature because well I'm twenty. A few months ago I was still a teenager, I'm still going through college, I still have many crazy years left in me. So don't put me in a box and let me screw up without giving me a look that says I'm not who you thought I was. Because I'm always me and one of those things is young--we are learning our whole lives and well I'm further behind than many of you.

dear Friendernets

I feel that Ive been neglecting you horribly why those of you that only read my blog wouldn't know that I recently(ie a month ago) cut off all my hair

see its cute. I still forget I have short hair but I really like it although I may have picked the wrong time to do it

also its been snowing here! Like crazy It feels like the end of December not the beginning.

Also its crazy that its December I've almost been here a year! I realize that some of you make think back to my older posts and say shouldn't her next sentence be like Also I come home in a month? sadly no I'm still here for another few months but its defiantly winding down.

and life goes on..bis bald!