Taylor and Photos

Ok so first off Taylor Swifts new album Speak Now came out...and its awesome some of the songs are a bit more sad but mostly for me its the same stuff I love about her songs--they just make you happy I really like taylor swift because she isnt afraid to show who she is a quality I highly respect and revere.

Ok so next these are pictures of Lara who turned one on tuesday I tried to focus on the positive negative space...don't you guys already feel bad for my future kids :)

it was truely a beautiful day

Heut ist so ein schonen Tag

happy halloween all.

Out of touch

Thats what I feel
out of touch
with friends
with family
with life
with me
with this blog


seriously no one talks to me...which is lame and don't feel bad...or too bad
I mean its hard Im 6-8 hours ahead of you guys not even my family talks to me that often.
but I literally had a near-death experience and no one said anything about it.

I've been so busy lately hanging out with friends and just running around doing stuff I feel a bit out of touch with me I haven't really had time to just chill by myself or even enough time to do everything I want to.

I've changed a lot over the past year and I don't feel like I always get the time to learn about myself.

so heres a question how do I get back in touch? how do I feel less disconnected?

How can I feel like Im in limbo in my own mind....

In Touch

So everyone in our house got sick over the past week but I didn't really notice that I was sick until yesterday when I finally had a chance to slow down. Honestly I should have realize it I went to bed at 9 two nights in a row there's been a definite lack of appetite. But yesterday I finally had a chance to slow down and almost fell asleep against a cabinet. But then suddenly I felt a prompting that I needed to take my temperature-so I did. I had a fever but it wasn't that high I told the other ladies that I needed to go to bed. But its a really good thing that I didn't just go to bed. Just a few hours later my fever had risen to 103.1 my friends that I had been consulting told me I had to find medicine right then! so I went and talked to the ladies so I could get some meds.

as a side note one of them also made me random teas and wrapped my feet in vinegar soaked cloths and tried to get me to eat a whole onion.

Ok so then I went to sleep but today my fever went back up really high and I went into the doctor and apparently my throat is all inflamed and they prescribed some meds but I don't recall ever having had such a high fever before so it kind of scares me

also what scares me is that if I had ignored those feelings and just went to bed last night....

Now I'm much better no reason for alarm

Let's share

What makes you Purely happy? (I'll give you points if you answer)

as for me

-a good song

-dancing

-laughing

-an eis run

-sitting in schlossplatz

Where do you feel "home"?

I feel it

-looking out of an airplane during the decent to bwi

-looking at schlossplatz full of people

-in the vest's kitchen

-holding my cat

-hanging out with my sister

what are your obsessions?

right now mine are

-taylor swift's mine

-blogging

-harry potter

-books

-chocolate

-crocheting

What are your "guilty pleasures"

I never really feel guilty but mine are

-teeny bopper music

-my stuffed animals(only 2 people)

-harry potter

-disney shows

-chick flicks

What are signature things about you?

mine are

-stripes or polka dots

-knee socks

-ribbons and bow clips

-a sweater and an umbrella in my bag

-having my phone constantly dabei...I mean with me.

ok now its your turn spill and I promise my points aren't like on who's line is it anyways.

Nanny diary: entry 14 Lara lou

So lara actually talks a little now she says like mama and baba and shes very expressive like the other day she communitated to me that she wanted to go out in a certain stroller she shows me where she wants to go..

Lara cant crawl but she does get around by like rolling and scooting and then she can finally sit up on her own and pull herself up to stand and stand with only one hand holding something and she can walk while holding someones hands

Shes a true little girl and she loves shoes and putting them on and looking cute she gets pleased with herself

spending my days with this sweet little girl lifts me up with just how purely happy she can be and she makes me excited to be a mom I have friends who talk about how hard it is and I get that but at the end of the day...I love a baby's laugh and Im excited to be able to help harbor a little life.

If you havent seen it go watch taylor swift's new music video mine

Shopping

;-.0.PBIUH., K ,--a message from Lara

Ok so I kind of really like to shop, I enjoy getting new clothes

but if you ever want to get me something never get me clothes unless your my sister cause Im a bit picky about my style.

get me a book instead or a movie I loooove books seriously I LOVE them they are just awesome I really love anthologies. But I hate books with movie covers

Ok all of this was more coherent in my head. oh well.

high 6!

night all

just one of those days

bah.

thats how I feel today. Kind of a someone just shoot me before anything else can happen type of feeling.

it's friday which for most people means yippee the weekend but for me means I've been working for 5 days getting up very early each of these days after little and poor sleep. it means I just feel done. And on top of that I still work saturdays.

My one day off a week is Sunday on which I get up early to go to church....its usually very tempting to just stay in bed. So all in all I'm just tired also every morning about 4 am when erk wakes up and starts yelling Im very tempted to yell at him to shut up. Ive yet to do this which I feel is a sort of small accomplishment.

note to people who coddle your children: stop--they are probably freaking annoying.

oh so I decided to take a year off of school and go move to Germany; most people have told me this was a brave decision yada yada yada. Heres the thing: it wasnt.

not in the slightest.

see most of the reason I took off was I was scared life was moving too fast and I had no idea of where I was going tired of running with no visible means of stopping or in what direction I was going. So I did something I'm good at I ran into a tree so I would stop. Thinking I could take a pause from my life and start running again in a year. Things don't exactly work like this because everyone else keeps running--maybe even running past you. and life keeps moving forward. and I still have no idea what Im doing. some days I like that today though...today it sucks

I mean I love being here its amazing but sometimes I wish I had stayed even though I know it was a good decision to come here because I was either going to have to take a break from school or go into debt there. at least this way I got to travel. but today Ill be honest I miss home I miss being a student I miss my friends and I'm tired of everyone running past me.

but what I love is that a 2 minute conversation with a girlfriend can make it all seem slightly less tragic who says frivolity doesnt have it's advantages?