Momma

Through ups and downs and twists and turns. Through hateful words and long nights. Through good times and bad. In this country or from across the sea. Whether I'm little or grown, happy or sad, crazy or sane. I love you. It may not seem like much but you're a big deal to us.

Annie

Celebrate!

• Good Hair Days
• Finishing Projects
• Smiles
• Tears
• Love
• good hats
• singing
• good food
• the home stretch
• family
• friendship
• good roommates
• attempts to lock you in your room
• secret santas
• service
• extra credit
• humility
• a job well done
• feel good moments
• hugs
• random german exclamations
• support
• cake
• snow
• sliding on ice
• comfy couches
• parties
• good teachers
• laughing

I have been over-whelmed lately by all the love I receive and good fortune in my life-so lets celebrate! Smile a little more, laugh a little harder and spread a little cheer-make sure no one feels alone.

Anne Katherine

December

Coming into one of the busiest months of my life...and I'll just tell you- I need some support

Have you ever had those days where you just felt like you couldn't do it?

couldn't find the motivation to finish

couldn't get everything done in time

couldn't make it those last few weeks

couldn't afford to get everything

didn't have time for everything

couldn't please everyone

couldn't succeed

couldn't move to a country all by yourself

couldn't be all alone?

yeah well I'm having one of those days-any support?

It's that time of year

Thanksgiving, a time of year we slow down(due to the extra food consumption) and think about what makes our lives worth living(as we are slightly forced) therefore here is a nice list of what I am thankful for this year(sorry no pictures this time):

-My giant wardrobe-enabling me to pack now and still have clothes to wear the next three weeks-clothes that I will just get rid of at the end though

-my pink christmas tree-because we all need a little christmas cheer

-my piggy bank-18.50 in change? thank you!

-tithing blessings....that will hopefully come from paying my tithing

-My grandma-without her I wouldn't be able to pay for my plan ticket

-my phone-its just a simple way to keep in touch, keep track of my appointments and wake myself up

-books...Ill always be a bookworm

-movies

-my roommates :)

-my family :D

-having a washer and dryer in my room

-food! I'm actually really hungry right now

-that I bought new suitcases for this summer

-that I was a nerd in high school and therefore have a MASSIVE backpack to pass off as a personal item

-that I get to move to Germany

-having a job

-and much much more!

And because we can't have too much selflessness in one blog

My Christmas list!(mostly for my family all of whom read this)

-cash...I'm moving people! but if you really would like to get me something refer to the list below-do not stray from the list because if you do there is a 99.9% chance I will thank you for it place it in a box and never look at it again.

-Movies(can be put in my movie case)-including:

up!

HP&Half blood prince

Wall-e

transformers

interpreter

seven brides for seven brothers

any good disney movie

-socks

-underwear :P

-snacks :D

Ridiculous Post for a Ridiculous day

Things that I have a ridiculous obsession with

-Germany

-Dr Pepper

-History

-kuessen

-cheesy movies

-hating peanut butter

Things about me that are ridiculous

-I chew all my pens to bits

-my phone is like my life-line

-I love the smell of plain soap

-I love wearing rings

-I don't know where I'm going or why...but I'm going

-I'm bad at remembering to eat

-I hate shaving and ironing

-I eat ketchup with everything

-I do things without really thinking about it

Things that are just ridiculous

-snow in November

-superstitions

-pants

-facebook

-blogs

-working on the weekend

-magic 8 balls

-shoes

-giving up

-spontaneity

Just because it's ridiculous doesn't mean it's not awesome!

I want to get back to

HERE. Note the total relaxation, just soaking up some sun not worrying about papers or packing or midterms or fitting it all in. This was a time that I wasn't worried about boys or school or friends...I was thinking about sleeping the feel of grass on my arms...not about this picture being taken.

Now everything is so jumbled Im so busy-just want some time to relax without feeling guilty

The one with a messy room

Halloween last weekend. Friday night my house had a party I dressed up as waldo and then later a bunny and went to AlpineVillage for another party which was fun until a fight broke out and I got head butted leaving me a bruise under my eye. The next night actual halloween I was a bee and we went to a block party that had a haunted house-it was ok. I had to work both nights and wore my tutu on saturday when I got to go home at one but got paid till six...good night. um so monday a friend from Vienna got to Provo and we hung out just walking around and then we went to the mall yesterday morning...I think I walked like ten miles in two days lol. Yesterday I had no classes but was really busy. After I went to the mall this girl cut and dyed my hair for her interview at a salon...so it was free :) after all that it was like 20 and I still had homework to do.

I mean could you go through all of that getting ready throwing stuff around to help others get ready going places and still have a clean room??? you could? well youre obviously not in college

nanny diary:entry 1

Ok so in two months I will be leaving utah on my way to maryland on my way to Stuttgart Deutschland. As many of you know Ive been trying to move to Germany since I was old enough to think about it and many probably don't know Ive been thinking about being an aupair for about a year and about a month or so ago I just decided to do it. I found a host family using greataupairs.com which is a great site if you want to do this sort of thing, the school used to have families that they worked with but they are now all grown up! So my family aren't members but there is a ward in the city they live in and I should have most Sundays to do as I please. The Family has 2 kids Erk about 2 1/2 and Lara about a week! They live in downtown Stuttgart. Ill live with the family and take care of the kids and do some light housework. They still have a cleaning lady so none of the cleaning will be super intensive. The mom is Turkish and the dad is German so they speak a lot of languages in their house. They want me to speak english with Erk but they will speak German with me so I can improve my language skills. Ill also take a language course while I am there in the evenings. ok so the rest of the "diaries" will be on hold until january but this is whats new with me. If you have any questions comments or concerns leave them here
-Anne

Lately

So I've been looking at my friends pictures and their blog posts and everything and all I have to say is I MISS VIENNA

Classes are going ok Im crazy busy all the time but still manage to find time to watch how I met your mother glee and office every week as well as project runway with my friends. I work friday saturday and monday nights this does a number on my sleep schedule. Life here isn't really too exciting so nothing much to say, right now just trying to survive and get ready to leave.

Im noticing its hard to spell some words in english now...the letters just don't come to my head

also boys are weird....

love
Annie K.

Well cats out of the bag

So some of you may have noticed something odd is going on-all the joy and what not

and no I am not engaged

I'm moving-to Germany-for a year

that is all

Here's to:

figuring things out.

I've never been one to really plan for the future. I didn't decide to come to BYU until the summer before my senior year. I've never been certain what I want to do with my life-I've always known that I like to write but that was about it. Everytime I meet someone new or see one of my parents friends they all ask two questions.

First: what's your major? to which I have been able to promptly and confiendently answer European Studies for a while now.

and then...What are you going to do with that? to which I've never had an answer and generally answer oh I have no idea-it's just a fun major.

If you know me you know I'm stuborn if I'm anything and once I've made my mind I generally stick to it..no matter how crazy it is.

so heres to having a plan, confidence and having an answer.

The one with Roommate bonding

Ok so let me start off by telling you how much I love my roommates! Seriously they should find this and see how awesome they are!!!
Ok so my day was pretty typical- procrastinated getting up, rolled out of bed went to class, wished I was done at the break, went to my last class, came home goofed off for a couple hours instead of doing homework.....and then

I go upstairs and my roommates are going to Sammy's to get pie shakes-this is what it sounds like a piece of pie put into a shake...yeah it was good well I tried tiffany's since I got a BLT which was also good.
ok then on the way out a guy in a RV stops us and asks us to call 911 for him were like um what? ok. So we do he has us call the police because his fiance got mad and just got out of the car and started walking away...apparently she had some outsanding bench warrant? and so yeah my roommate is talking to the police and describing what she is wearing when she walks up!!! so yeah she got in the car and they started yelling at each other and took off. We gave the cops their plates and got out of there.
Ok next meeting with the bishop...not too bad Ill have a calling soon I guess but he needed to talk to my last bishop to give me a temple recomend....good luck with that-its ok we worked it out hell talk to my director.
Then got home and went country dancing with some of my roommates...BEST THING EVER!!!!!!
Seriously I'd never done this before but was having so much fun this one guy I danced with was fliping me around and it was just amazing.
We want to go every week because it was like the coolest thing ever.

Ok I have like 4 hours of reading and its midnight-oh the college life you can pick two things of good grades sleep and a social life-guess which two I generally pick :)

Why being sick sucks

1.I like food....when sick it is difficult to eat
2.if you have a stuffy nose-you can't breathe well
3.I don't maintain a normal temperature anyways
4.I feel gross.....could probably use a shower, but
5. am too weak from being sick to move that much
6. I end up saying/doing crazy things or
7.Im just terrible at responding in a coherent manner
there is a lot more that sucks about being sick but I won't bore you with the details. Lets see 2-9 didnt sleep since I was sick then my awesome roommate tiffany stayed with me so I didnt pass out and choke and die. Then fell asleep....found out something exciting-so I walked to Megan's to hang out. My low tempurature went to high....but in the end good day...or not ask me when Im well and I can decide if my actions were crazy or not.

The one where I can't sleep

Seriously I was asleep.

I went to bed at 10 like a good little girl.

and I fell asleep.

about 11:30 I get a call about a very last minute application I sent in

yeah they wanted me to go up then.

I got back by about midnight-not bad right?

but now I cannot sleep.

Can I just say there is a disturbing amount of people out in Provo at midnight I mean its Provo what is there to do????

First week of classes is going pretty good Ive already begun to procrastinate homework, turned in a paper and have my first research assignment well assigned-wahoo. Did you know Im techniquly a junior now.

You'd think a junior in college would be smart enough to not download a virus to their computer

so its a good thing Im really a sophomore-or I just dont posess the good sence I was born with

This post is slightly odd-Ill blame it on the late hour

best Ice cream in Vienna sadoni and sadoni off of stephans platz

best resturant Schnitzelwirt neubaugasse 52

I WANT ICE CREAM-mainly the ice cream depicted above....its mango second best mango ice cream ever the first was that place in Leipzig san remo...or something like that.

That is if you like eis.....and not gilato-like me

ok bed now hopefully

Anne Katherine

Silly Annie

Since I think it would be horribly sad to only have one blog post for august


some random thoughts
1. I used to obsessively check "my" blogs in chronological order...now I look at them in order that they amuse me
2. I truely should be doing homework right now....but its only the first week there isnt anything too major...mostly just reading.
3. My biology teacher is crazy also I may have stumbled into the equivilent of tree hugger 101 and since megan says I'm like tree hugger 300...thats ok with me :)
4. For those of you in the know TWO DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!
5. I would rather like some doctor pepper right now...I may start offering rewards again to whomever brings me some.
6. my house is hot....but I live in the basement so its nice and cool
7. my room is an absolute pig sty already *shakes head*
8.I kind of feel like swiming-or jumping off of a diving board into freezing water
9. I will probably die of German this semester since I have 2 intense german classes and am trying to do several other things to improve my language skills.
10. I have no idea where I'm going in life but I'm excited to get there-they say its all about the journey anyways right?

love-Annie

An update(or something like it)

Here I am back at BYU. Sitting in the little nook in my room(yes I am pyched) looking out at the bed and rather ominous sheet that hangs behind it-possible hiding a water heater? Also a lot of boxes since I just moved in but Im all unpacked so they are empty boxes. Im excited to be back in provo(dispite the fact that for the past month when ever someone mentioned it Id shake my head and grumble under my breath stupid provo) but mostly to see people. Seriously I miss Vienna a ton-Ive had my fill of here and Im ready to go back-too back Im dead broke. So not too much is new except that I really need a job and that classes start monday-Im excited to go back to learn more and to work on my german more-I have two german classes. Im feeling a little homesick and lonesome for Vienna and our group there I saw them so often and we got so close...its just weird to be without them.

Ok Im going to snuggle down with a book and just be a lazy bum for a while-because honestly its what I do best. Look out on facebook for pictures of my new house. Hopefully you've all seen the ones of Austria. Want to hear about anything? Saltmines? Ice Caves? Hiking in the Alps? Rushing around our last day? Honestly I still can't believe Im gone.

Anne

the one with all the should'ves

Is it really july? Has a new year of my life really started? Do I really leave Vienna in less than a week?

If you can't tell I'm feeling a little reluctant right now. I don't want time to keep moving. In just a year I won't be a teenager anymore, but I don't know anything else about what my life will be like. The reason I say that is because if you had told me next year that my life would be where it is right now I would have never believed you. Not because I'm unhappy or I think I would have not liked what the future held just that its soo different and it doesn't look like its solidifying anytime soon. I should tell you about my amazing trip to Budapest and how great it was to see the chapmans. I should tell you about what we're doing in class right now and how we're spending our last week in Vienna. I should tell you about the progression of my german which I guess has been a lot. I should tell you about our 2 week trip coming up in the alps. I should tell you about the projects I just finished. I should tell you about how supremely happy I am and how much I wish I never had to leave Vienna. I should tell you about how I'm a little sad that my mom left MD because now no one is at "home" I should tell you how Im feeling a little homeless. I should tell you how I am feeling so unmotivated right now. I should tell you how much I want life to start(just with a little warning of what it is) I should tell you about how I wish I could get a glimpse of where Ill be next year.


But I've just got too much on my mind

The one with the better place

Elder Gill: Where are you going to be this weekend


Elder Tilgner: In a better place!





yeah he really said that lol





SO Thursday night megan and I left from Wien Westbahnhof our train was scheduled to leave at 9 but we left at ten....after serveral hours of trying to sleep in a chair but when we got to Praha...prague? 3 people got off and then we could lay out because as the berliner next to us said "lets spread out and pretend were asleep so people wont come in" which actually worked because not as many people continue on to Dresden after Prague. So a few hours later...still in the Czeck....spell check?....we heard this loud noise. What we heard was the wires above the train snapping and then hitting something loose on the track. Five hours later they made us go to the other side of the tracks to get on another train. We finally got to Dresden and luckily a train to Leipzig which was the goal, so we got to Leipzig at 1 pm instead of 7 am. First thing we did was buy our tickets and honestly this experience already made us like Leipzig better than Vienna because the ticket people were so much nicer to us and worked had to get us the cheapest tickests possible. The people at Sudbahnhof we recognise because we hate them so much...they're mean and make us feel dumb. Ok but tickets home out of the way we decided to get some good old Burger King because thats why you go to germany...Megan did spice it up by getting a chili cheese burger and a chicken nugget burger both seemed rather interesting. Then we went around the Bahnhof since it is 3 stories and has over 140 resturants and stores....yeah its huge total conundrum as to why. After we wandered for a bit we went outside in order to find this supposedly really good ice cream-but we only knew the street name and there is like 5 eis places on every street so we picked the one with the crowd and let me tell you it was amazing best eis we've had yet. Um so then we walked around finding like the major churches and the old and new rathaus...searched for a suvineer shop-took forever this place is sooo untouristy. Ok well a ton more amazing stuff happened but I just don't feel like writing about it right now

My Birthday was pretty chill we helped my host mom move and then just hung out so really different but fun. this weekend were just hanging around but next weekend we are going to Budapest!! soooooexcited

More later-Anne

The one in which I ramble a little

SO the week at a glance
shopping, chinese food, church, long walks(no one else was in town) RAIN RAIN RAIN, FHE, Movie with new friends, way more snack food than was good, Shopping-spent too much money RAIN RAIN RAIN RAIN, insitute-megans came home. Met another BYU who is just chilling for the summer. Actually finished homework. Went to herb's(again its really amazing) Dyed megans hair Rented another movie traveled an hour to watch with another friendwho just fell asleep. Got on the U-bahn with all the poeple coming home from the DOnau-insel fest...so they were drunk. Tonight donau insel fest free snow patrol and a hawaiian concert.

I could go into detail...but I'm having too much fun to stop for that long. Keep bringing me your souvenir requests

What I want

So what I want for my birthday


yeah this is big enough to get it's own post

The scriptures in german. Yup thats it all I want so all pool together go to a distribution center and find it. Like just the ones that are like the scriptures you get for seminary that are a little flimsy, but the triple I have with me is one edition old(sorry dad you just went on your mission too long ago) and I have no bible and I'm sick of not knowing whats going on. So thats all I want. Seriously its even kind of difficult to get them here...or at least as far as I can tell if you are not an investagator so I'd love this soooo mcuh. Send to aforementioned address of Operngasse 4

On a less selfish note: what gifts from austria/germany/budapest do people want?

love Anne

Wow what a weekend!

Ok more like a week since I have to start with last wenesday evening when our long weekend started.





Wenesday: For our german class we saw Zauberflote the opera by Mozart. Let me tell you there is a reason that Mozart was a composer and not a writer. Seriously the music is amazing and the story is entertaining but also weird and confusing. Oh did I mention it was pupets which was pretty cool..but I did almost fall asleep I was tired. At the same time over half our group was on the way to Frankfurt to go to the temple, I didn't go because I thought I wouldn't have enough money, but its ok I had an amazing weekend.





Thursday: Ok so I went to megans at 10 to do homework and plan our trip to Bratislava. We ended up spending hours trying to find tickets going to Sudbahnhoff trying to find the ticket counter getting lunch and going back to her house. We got tickets 14 euros round trip, which if you don't know is pretty sweet. We went back to her house did homework, went up to our directors house since I left the tickets for a midsummersnightsdream in it (in german its all one word) then we went to chelseas to watch movies. Before we went to her house though we stopped for ice cream. Megan got a box but I got a cone with disasterous results. When the U-bahn came it blew my hair into my ice cream....yeah gross. The movies were really good though one is german and I want to see the other 4 and the other was Kung fu Panda auf Deutsch, which is funny that they still have his name be po. I fell asleep there and ended up getting home at midnight but don't worry the guys walked me home.





Friday:So for me friday was a breeze but my friends were busy helping one of the girls in our group get engaged. One had to go get her now fiance and the other had to make sure she got to the appointed place on time and looked decent. I won't go into it because it took a lot of planning time effort and lying seriously even our director was helping us. So I met up with them and we went to Herbs aka snitzelwirt. That was amazing because who doesnt love wiener schnitzel(and if its called that in austria it has to be made of veal or they are breaking the law) Then we went to movie night and watched no reservations, seriously at the end of a long hard week you really just need a good chick flick. Then we went home talked too much and slept because



Saturday: 4:30 am...alarm goes off to get up and get to the train station and get on a train and we almost got on the wrong one. Highlights of our 6 am train ride:

"you look uncomfortable" "what I'm a terradactl?"

Get to Bratislava Slovakia no one checks our passports or tickets...lame also everything was closed because its only like 8 in the morning( well we got there at 7 but took an hour to figure out where we were and get to the main train station) so we got back on the bus to go take pictures of Bratislava castle which we saw on the way to the train station. There we posed on a wall and were laughed at by the other tourists. Um then we found the little blue church(go to bratislava see the little blue church) and devin castle...it was sooo cool. Went home saw midsummers nights dream

Sunday:went to church had life changing realizations...for me to know maybe for you to find out someday.

Ok sorry it took so long to post later anne

The one in which I loved the rain again

Ok so I hate the rain, I hate being wet so the two things kind of go hand in hand. Seriously when I had to introduce myself at our weekly meeting here one of the things I said was I hate the rain and never go anywhere without my umbrella. This morning as I went outside for my morning walk/jog...ok more walk/jog/walk there is very little jogging involved...it was raining. At first I thought that maybe I should just head back inside I wasn't feeling all that great anyways. But then I realized that the rain on my skin felt good like from back when I was little and just ran around in the rain because it felt good. So I started my walk and didn't really end up going that far because well yeah it was raining. But I ended up just full out running for the last block and let me tell you it felt good. Heart pounding feet meeting with the earth and moving forward , it all just felt good. Going up the stairs my legs felt like jelly and that felt good too. As did getting ready for school eating breakfast and going to school, which included more walking in the rain. I forgot how good it feels to just make yourself happy. I just wish I could have held on to it for a little bit longer. I forgot how much I do sweat the little stuff and how much I notice everything and over anaylize everything. Even when I tell myself not too when I tell myself to get over it. I still do a little, and it still hurts underneath it all. I'm remembering that going far away means that everyone forgets about you. That being insecure means I don't trust anything to last. Right now I'm just feeling done and I want to rant and rave and cry and scream, but it wouldn't do anyone any good. With my mind being pissed and my heart being sad I'm kind of a mess. But as soon as I get busy I forget all about it and learn to live again. Maybe I just need to chuck my computer out the window-so I have no way to look back. Dispite my little rant right here Im actually really happy mornings are just weird I'm alone and bored and I've finished all my homework so theres nothing to keep me busy. If you'll excuse me I think I'm going to go dance in the rain and get that feeling back.

Oh also I'm in the market for another hoodie since I didn't realize it'd be so cold and they seem moraly opposed to them here(at least I can't find any) So any one want to send me one I will bring you back chocolate.Operngasse 4 A-1010 Wien(its the place I take classes but we can get mail here.)

The one in which I fell off a bike

Ok so yesterday we decided to get City bikes and ride around the ring. City bikes cost a euro to start the program and then each time you use it the first hour is free and the next only like costs one euro. The ring is the street that circles the first district, its generally where the old city wall used to be. So after about twenty minutes we all had our bikes and started off. This is the first time I've ridden a bike in a very long time. SO me with my 20 or so pound bookbag soon fell behind the rest of the group, but I found myself in the company of the ehepaar which was a very good thing a few minutes later since I suddenly realized my bike was about to crash. Somehow I managed to jump off my bike and I was standing next to it when they turned around. Simeon took my bag to prevent me from falling again. We had a pretty good ride but were going pretty fast at the end up a hill trying to find a place to return the bikes and get to the Burgtheater by 3.

And here is my little rant for today. I wish people would stop trying to teach me patience I wish they would stop if it hasnt worked for the past 18....almost 19 years why would it work now? I ask you. I've noticed I generally get more impatient when things dont go exactly like I'd hoped or as quickly as I wanted. I generally have to get mad before I back off...which probably is not a quality akin to patience but closer to stuborness. Because I am stuborn and impatient and braty. But I'm actually trying to change that-force myself to be patient...but I think most of that resolve is out of stubornness....whatever. So Im sitting here eating a slightly green banana hoping that it will make me feel better...but I still kind of feel sick to my stomach...Ok homework time, staying busy is key to my plan.

The one with nothing to report

So my weekend wasn't the most exciting, no offense to I the people I was with I had fun I just don't feel as though I have anything to report on. So here is some stuff I've been working on. Stuff I've been thinking about, like time being arbitrary its all just an opinion of placement. Techniquly its the same time here as it is in the states but on the other hand Im 8 hours ahead. People time travel all the time, just nothing new had happened because its the same time. Confusing but kind of interesting to think about. the other, well I just feel like that.

It's hard to find the train
since I've forgotten the name
of the place that I'm going or
even if its the same
all that I know is what
I'm trying to do
have to find a way to get
myself back to you.

I don't know where I'm going
and I don't know where I've been
as soon as I start leaving I
have to start again
whenever I think Im right
I realize Im wrong
I have to turn around because
everyones gone

So I dont know what Im doing
and I dont know where I am
all I know is that I always
seem to be on the wrong
side of the tracks
as soon as I get on I always look back
and there you are
in the place
with out any name
theres a smile on your face

I have to turn around
and find a way
back to that
place.



TIME

Is it day or is it night
I cant tell although
its light out
I mean does it really matter
Im only in this town for a
day or two anyways
On tuesday Ill get on a train
and go to another time again
Its always a long day
and its always a short night

On wenesday I last saw my love

as we passed through

the same station

he said some day we will settle down

and never be apart again

never quite sure if my head's got
it right,
I always seem to sleep by sunshine
and dance in the moonlight.

The one in which I go to a free concert

So yesterday...which was Thursday the Vienna Philharmonic played in the gardens at Schonbrunn Place. Obviously everyone in our group was planning on going since they are amazing and the event is free(big fans of cool free things) So class that day was over early since we had a tour of the Parliment building at 12:20 so we also had our weekly meeting early, where I was the spotlight totally lame lol. But some of the girls from our group decided to go to Schonbrunn early and take pictures in the gardens and I ended up going with them. It was so much fun, and some of the pictures came out pretty cute. Then a couple people went for pizza and we walked up the hill to hold ourselves a spot among the millions of smoking people...they all also brought wine. The music started about the time the guys got back with the pizza and we dicovered you cant hear anything on the hill. So we moved down the hill to hear a little while we ate and then walked down behind the main area in order to beable to hear. It was so amazing the music was soooo good and gorgeous. The glorietta(terrace behind the palace) looked so amazing all lite up. And the fireworks at the end went with the music perfectly it was so cool. I didn't get home untill midnight but it was well worth it. Totally one of the best days so far.

The one in which I didn't ride a bike and babysitting auf deutsch

Ok so on friday night my roommate and I babysat for our Host mom and her fiance so they could go see a movie together while he was in town. All we had to do was watch a movie and get the toddler ready for bed. We watched matilida in german which was a ton of fun the kids just sat and watched the movie and ate pretzels except Alias he ran around threw pillows and what not but thats ok since Hillary doesnt really like to sit still. After the movie the kids got ready for bed and we went to sleep. A very excting friday. Well its nice because now our host family's daughter talks to us and shes kind of shy so its a neat thing.




On saturday we got up way early...aka 6 am in order to meet our group by 7 to travel to the town of Melk (yes the name of this town got a lot of jokes made about it). There we saw this crazy monestary that started with a bunch of rooms with black lights and what not it was crazy! I mean monks still live there and they have over 200 employees since its such a big business because of tourists and what not. So that was pretty cool even though it was cold and raining-I had an umbrella don't worry. Ok so after that we were supposed to do a 34 km bike ride from Melk to Kremes-it had stopped raining but it looked like it should start up again. The other option was to go get cookies and hot chocolate(cookies in Melk how perfect right) but the majority were up for still hitting the trail. By the time we got to Kremes it was coming down pretty hard so Margret and I were glad that we opted to ride on the bus instead of going 20 miles in the pouring rain. I guess a couple hours later our director called us and this is when we started organizing the rescue mission. Which was interesting since our group of 20 people were spead out over the last 10 miles bad at describing where they were and our driver had a very thick accent. Well and hour or so later everyone was on the bus and we headed back to vienna. Woot. Woot.

The one in which I ate far too much food

So on Saturday we went to Schnitzelwirt which I highly recomend your ever in Vienna you have to hit it up 52 Neubaugasse. So a schnitzel there is about as long as a keyboard on a laptop and ours had tomatos cheese mushrooms ham and potatos with it, so I ate half of mine and Hillary´s and then ate a third of Shelly and sandy´s schnitzel cordon bleu some of a knodel potato dumbling and potato salad and then walked down the street and got two scoops of ice cream, it was amazing. Needless to day I felt like a pig.

Well last thursday we went to Ganselhaufel wow thats totally wrong its the giant pool thing where the normal people go...ok poor people lol. There is a wave pool a slide pool a really deep pool and a section of the donau there is also something in the nude section of the beach but that is blocked off by a hedge....poor megan who wasnt warned and tried to see if we were there. It was pretty fun we all hung out but the wave pool was sooooooo cold so one of the megans and I didnt go too far in. The slide pool water was pretty warm so we hung out there a lot. After lunch I didn't get back in the water but a bunch of people got in the donau..the water was green. Besides Danny who never got in at all but just took pictures I'm the only one that went that never got in the river. I never plan too.

More later!

The one in which we forgot our passports

So on wenesday we were going to register for classes me and my roommate were totally ready forms all prepared. This day I also decided to wear a skirt to look nice and it was a little hot. We got to class about 9:15 and class doesn't start untill 10 plenty of time to mess around on the computer right? Wrong. Hillary and I imediatly realized we forgot our passports. Something we need to register to become a resident. So we called the people that were just moving into our apt in hopes that the wife(shelly) could go get the passports, but alas they had already left. SO we had 45 minutes to run home and back. So we did. Run that is. It's quite interesting to run past people going to the opera in order to catch a street car. So 2 stops from our house it was 9:30 we were back on the platform with our passports by 9:36. We live two blocks from the stop and up 3 flights of stairs...we can book it. Back with time to check our e-mail barely. And now I am a resident of Vienna Austria. How many people can say that? well quite a feew but you get the idea

Life's just one big Schokocroisant

Which by the way are amazing! Today was a holiday so every one went to the pool well the wave pool/ slide pool/ river. It was a-ma-zin-ga. The pictures are above I'm too lazy to format anything and yes one of those is me sunbathing one of the other girls cameras died and so I let her use mine. As a result me in a swimsuit. But its cool I love her anyways. SO vienna....what can I say it's amazing I have a million and one stories being on the strassen bahn forgetting my passport the day we registered at residents coming to the out reach its from the church seriously it's awesome here it feels like home and everyone is so nice. the missionary couple that run it are so nice. Well lets see today and um yesterday I think I played Frissbee and me and my roommate are going to try and go running in the mornings but its been kind of hard so far with homework and stuff. I just have no idea what to write about here tell me what you want to know
A.places
B.activities
C.people
D. something else like food.

K pictures later

Vienna in pictures

crying in the shower is like
whistling in the wind
it's like talking at a rock concert
no one knows
but you get all the comfort

uncertainty

Sun shines down on me
to counteract with the wind
the sun-warmed bricks
feel rough beneath my skin
as I sit wondering
how I feel
I'm still not sure
but I can tell
it's time to keep
moving along

Is anyone out there?

Because if they are I can't tell,

Feeling more than a little alone

And there's no way to know

When the feeling will fade

Because I'm determined to wait

And you don't care, don't notice

So I'm the one that hurts.

& what not

Obviously I'm a little bored- here are some pictures I edited from after Kemper's baby blessing and one of me that I just liked. Nothing terribly exciting going on, I just need to pack for vienna.

A week in satus updates

Anne already wants to get on facebook
Anne does not want to lift weights
Anne is kind of a whiny brat, I should work on that
Anne thinks that tattoos are crazy
Anne wishes her life was more adventerous
Anne needs to find something productive to do
Anne wishes it were tomorrow
Anne is kind of a liar
Anne has a good weekend
Anne-time seemes to be going slower and faster all at once...its disorienting
Anne can't wait it get out of here
Anne wishes she had friends
Anne is trying not to cry
Anne is longest week ever
Anne is no I'm not happy but youll never know


Websites I've been going too
Blogger-not updated as often so getting on a lot isn't as exciting
FML-funny, not always appropriate
Yahoo-been writing in my notepad
also a lot of solitare....I need a hobby


Ok so it has been a week since I've gotten on facebook ok maybe in a few hours it will have been, but you get the idea. K so I decided to go on facebook...just to see what it looked like if there were reactions you know# of notifications=12 messages=2 it was all just genaric. Facebook missed as a bordom buster but really I'm fine without it. I wish no one knew this blog were here but people do so I cant say whats on my mind

Facebook Stalking

Seriously recently I've thought of deleting my Facebook, it may help me talk to a few people but most of my "friends" are people i didn't even talk to when I knew them-so I don't care what they are doing. On occasion I talk to a few people but mostly not-I mean if people want to talk to me there is AIM or good old e-mail, even snail mail. No facebook for me is a time waster. Its a way to snoop on people. Come on everyone does it. You notice someone's status it seems off so you go to there page and try and figure out whats wrong by past statuses. Random people you had sort of met once but you didn't want to offend by rejecting them ask you advice. You become nervous about something so you compare peoples pages to see how they correspond. You notice something-wait were they together? why? Seriously facebook lately has just been a distraction and makes me stress out and freak out. I think I might go on a hiatus from facebook, see if I even last a week- I doubt it I'm too caught up it has really sucked me in. Even now I'm tempted to go back and look at it, see whats going on look at random photos, read the junk on pieces of flair. My bordom and natural well nosyness is driving me insane right now. Often my snooping just leads to questions I don't want to ask. Maybe this is all just me and I've become slightly odd...and more obsessive. I don't like my self like this, it's not who I usually am. I think I might try and last the whole summer. Everyone facebook stalks, but it doesn't mean it's right or healthy. K done with my rant for now. hopefully my heart with stop racing with suspision my mind stop asking questions I know I don't really want the answer too even if I had the right to ask.

ok Hiatus starts in 5 minutes after I tell everyone on fb that I'm doing a hiatus >_<

apparently I dont post quickly its the 18th

Defining Loser:

Is a loser that girl
that sits in public
with a suitcase?

Is a loser that girl
smushed between
a dog and her boyfriend?

Is a loser that girl
that almost always
takes control?

Is a loser that girl
that nearly walked out
an emergency exit?
Is a loser that girl
that is sitting in
my chair?

Ode to Papers
double-spaced
12 point font

MLA or APA
whatever they want
narrative or research
10 pages or 1
whatever it is
it isn't fun.



Wrappers
first you loop
then you tuck
next you pull
and wish for luck
think of a name
a special boy
or girl
and if the knot stays
they're not thinking
of you.
Some say it how
you tie it
that its nothing to do
with them
but I,
I
know the truth
its in the knot,
its in your eyes.

April Already

Semesters gone by really fast, soon I'll be done with finals and just a little time until I get to go to Vienna. Which in case you haven't noticed I'm really excited for. Hopefully before hand though I'll be able to head out to Colorado to visit my sister, brother-in-law and nephew. Ok really I'm going to visit my nephew his parents will just be there....well sort of it'll be nice to see them too. I've started to notice lately how completely uninteresting watching sports is as I'm writing this watching a volleyball game. Sean interrupts here: Get used to it. whatever. I'm totally used to it I will just never find it interesting....
Things of note at the moment. Not to much I'm just bored and trying to take up time. Well someone did get me sick this week so I only left my apartment once from the time I left church early on Sunday until Wednesday morning and that was to purchase juice meds and tissues. But for all of those that keep asking about that red-head that is in all those pictures he was nice and brought me soup. But that did not miraculously cure me as he so thinks. (Sean-it did) Yeah in high school I loved missing school it was more or less amazing, missing classes now basically sucks, you feel pretty behind pretty quickly-or at least I did.
Other things of note would be stealing so I'll let someone else talk about them. Or they are still underwraps.

Boredom
T.V. mixes with
bickering and exclamations
the light gives the room
an unkempt feel
sometimes the people
make it tense
akward comments
constant questions
and an overall ability
to just be

annoying.

Family Confessions

Series of short stories(meant to be illustrated)

Mother May I Tell You?
Mother may I tell you
that when I was four I left my shoes at the edge of the park
and went barefoot all afternoon
Mother may I tell you
that when I was five I swore at the bugs
because you couldn’t hear me
Mother may I tell you
that when I was seven I dropped (not spilled) my tomato soup
on that sweater you made me wear
Mother may I tell you
that when I was eleven I had my first kiss
that day you told me there wasn’t a stork
Mother may I tell you
that when I was fourteen I muttered under my breath
I hate you because you made me stay home
Mother may I tell you
that when I was sixteen I had my first and last puff of a cigarette
you were right, I wanted to die
Mother may I tell you
that summer I spent at the beach I wore a bikini
and low cut dresses and I knew you’d be upset
Mother may I tell you
my first year at university I got a tattoo of a star
and almost screamed because you touched it
Mother may I tell you
that when I was twenty I told people I was adopted
when they said I looked like you
Mother may I tell you
that when I was twenty-two and you took me back in
I complained about you to all my friends
Mother now that I told you
do you love me still?
Daughter may I tell you
that I knew
and I will always love you.

The Difference
My daddy held me in his arms the day I was born
and promised to love me forever
My daddy taught me how to tie my shoes
and how to try again
My daddy stood at the end of the driveway
watching me ride away on my bike
My daddy stayed up with me all night
that time I was sick
My daddy taught me my ABC’s
and took me to the playground
My daddy helped me build snowmen
and gave me hot cocoa
My daddy hugged me
and told me I was a light in the night
My dad hugged me
and told me everything would be alright
My dad helped me build courage
And gave me strength
My dad taught me to be independent
and took me to college
My dad stayed up all night the first time
I didn’t come home
My dad stood at security
watching me go away to distant lands
My dad taught me how to do my taxes
and how to try again
My dad gave me away the day another man
promised to love me forever
The difference is time
Even though I won’t always be little
I’ll always be his girl

I want to know you
This is for all the times I didn’t visit
This is for all the times I felt ashamed
This is for all the pictures I didn’t take
This is for all the stories I didn’t hear
This is for all the times I didn’t call
This is for all the sarcastic comments
This is for all things I didn’t say
This is for all the hugs I didn’t give
This is for all the games I didn’t play
This is for all the times I didn’t try
This is for all the people I saw instead
This is for all the things I didn’t understand
This is for all the times I didn’t smile
This is for not saying goodbye
I’m sorry.
The thing about mortals is
we are dumb enough to forget
that this life ends.


Why I am Glad I don’t have a brother
I’m glad I don’t have a brother
No one pulls my hair
No one takes my stuff
No one eats my cookies
No one steals my books
No one finds my hidden secrets
No one teases my friends
No one sits on me
No one hits me
No one tells my stories
No one takes my jokes
No one laughs at my ideas
No one upstages me!
Some people like brothers for protection
Now this I just don’t get
Because for your protection you get teased and pulled and punched
I get it for just being me!
Yes I’m glad I don’t have a brother
Because dear sister
I’d rather have you!

Sister did you know?
Sister did you know
that I always wanted to be you?
You had the coolest friends
and the coolest clothes.
I actually loved
to get you your drinks
to cook your dinner
to talk to you
when you told me to change
when you gave me advice
no matter how much I complained.
Sister did you see
that I tried to be like you?
I tried on all your styles
I attempted all your mannerisms
I worked on not being so little
I took all of your advice
even though you weren’t supposed to see
I know you did.
Sister did you know
I always believed in you?
Even when you went astray
and told me to go away
even when you changed
and grew from girl to woman
confused as everyone is
I always thought you should be famous
that you could do anything.
I still think you can.
And even though you’ve told me to never be you,
sister do you know
that I still want to be like you?
You have the most caring heart
you have the sweetest smile
you have the most determined nature
you are the most courageous person
you never let anyone get you down.
Sister do you see
that because of you
I try
to smile more
to believe more
to care more
to try more
to never give up.
Sister do you know
that you have always been
beautiful?

Only at BYU....

If a teacher swears in class the whole class gasps but then no one is surprised at the disscusion of
Jesus Christ

Can you find posters advertising womens seminars one of which is Flirting made Easy.


When you look for housing you first have to specify for married or single housing


There seems to be a lack of guys from the ages of 19-21(19 year olds are all leaving, 21 year olds just got back, 20 year olds more or less don't exist)

About half the graduating class each year is married

You can find many many many people in the freshman class that are engaged

People can date for ten days and then get engaged

You know everyone in your area because they are in your ward and when you ask people what the ward is like when you look for a new apt.

Basically only freshman live on campus.

18-19 year olds are nick-named "Pre-mi's" and guys over 21 are RM's

when they surran wrap signs and statues during rival week

you hope you don't have a roommate from Utah.

I'm sure a lot of other things too I'm just too lazy to think of them

Anyone else excited for valentine's day?

I like you

I like you
Not because you play the piano
But because you only like to play for me
Not because you cook for me
But because you think about what I want
Not because you take me out
But because you want to
Not because you tell me I’m beautiful
But because you mean it
Not because you kiss my hand
But because my heart stops when you do
Not because of the color of your eyes
But the way you look into mine
Not because of what you do
But because you’re doing something
Not because you like me
But because you are you.

She drew on her Shoes

A favorite pair of shoes
is an important thing
often they're old
often they're comfortable
sometimes crazy people love
new, tight, pristine shoes.

Her shoes were once white
now somewhere between
off-white and brown
with blue and black stars
and hearts scattered
her name on the sole

She has a pair of heels
bright red and tweed wedges
she likes to wear them
they make her feel beautiful
even if the squeeze her toes
but they're sunday shoes.

She likes the shoes
that are covered in
dirt and ink the ones
that can get wet.
A favorite pair of shoes
is an important thing.


Animals of Light

Startled I thought
I heard something
scurry across the trail
of water on the ground
looking down I thought
I saw a mouse, but
all there was, was
light gliding over the water
like a bird in flight

Snow-fall

Leaning over the back
of my couch
to look out the window at
falling snow
reflecting at the beauty of each
small white flake
Smiling as I very slowly
slip and Wam
Note to self face plants on
a couch hurt.

New

Making the boots fit

Each morning she pulls
herself out of bed
with a shiver and a sigh
simply drops her head
to face today and all the
tomorrows full of dread.
Age is glorious it's
beautiful never vain
and no mater how much
we hate it, it advances again
each day brings wisdom and doubt
and she wakes a bit more insane.
Wisdom and glory come of a
devestating cost,
it seems as our minds
expand our limbs become lost
beneath pillows we lose ourselves
like trying to find a window under frost.
And a pair of well worn leather
boots lie in the corner
will they work or not, as she pulls
and tugs and hopes for the former
with the zipper pulled 3/4ths up
because they just won't fit.

Cow goes Moo

shuffling along the ice
in my too-small
heart covered rain-boots
along with the other
thousands shuffling along
being pushed with the flow
someone breaks away
and pushes into me
ow!
then I proceed shuffling
as to not be trampled
as I move
I become angry
forced to walk in
a line-a formation
I stop and yell
at the sky
MOOO
and then shuffle on
as I reflect
I think-at least
there aren't any whips

What will you be remembered as?

The one who smiles when everyone frowns or the one that looks down when everyone else is looking up? Ok so my English teachers grandmother died recently(she was really cool, she helped her dad plant the palm trees in front of the Hawaii temple) and this gave her the brilliant idea that we should write our own obituaries, she says this isn't morbid since they celebrate life and not death, but yeah people don't mind obituaries because they're dead and can't hear people talking about them. Plus its a little akward to write about yourself in third person and in past tense as if you were dead. Well in case you're interested heres mine, the quote is from The Prince.

“Everyone can see what you appear to be, whereas few have direct experience of what you really are…” (Machiavelli) A way to describe Anne would be hidden, so many things she didn’t tell people or let it show. She was an avid reader with a few hundred books crammed in to a lonely bookcase, stacked tight and two rows deep; she was constantly reading a book and putting off “important” things. Anne loved to write, she had notebooks full of ideas and beginnings somehow she never found the time to finish-putting it off for when things settle down, for when she had time. Although Anne hid a lot of who she was, not letting people in before they were tested, she tried to never be fake. She listened to the music and watched the movies that made her happy, wore the clothes that she liked. She never did anything because it was the cool thing to do, but then again she didn’t shun something that was. Anne never wanted to be fooled; she thought things out and made her own opinion about things regardless of who her friends were. She was born and grew up in a time of change; she lived in a place that encouraged thought and individualism. Besides sparking her love of all things German her birth in Berlin during the fall of the wall later made her think of how she never wanted to be imprisoned. Growing up near the nation’s capital Anne became unafraid to make her ideas her own no matter how much they contradicted the world’s views, hearing about protests and demonstrations not only from the news, but from her friends and some she saw with her own eyes. This instilled a need in her to never believe in something you don’t, it made it easier to be one of the only members of the LDS church at her school. Anne loved to be a good friend, with a rather nurturing nature-if one of her friends was sick she would go and care for them even if she might be getting sick then too, she was always the one that her friends went to when they had troubles seeing as she could just listen and didn’t give advice when she didn’t have any. Anne knew the value of the words I don’t know, one of her professors once told her class to know what you know and know what you don’t know, for her there was no shame in not knowing something, it would be worse to pretend you did. Anne loved to learn and learned anything she could from anyone who cared to teach her. She would listen to anyone’s opinion with patience and real consideration, but it took a lot to change her mind about something. She often described herself as a five-year-old saying that when an idea took hold of her she stubbornly wouldn’t let go until it had come to pass or she decided she didn’t want it anymore. Anne loved to travel and would go anywhere she could, she wanted to see everywhere and learn about a lot of different cultures-she feared living in a bubble being too proud to find out what was going on beyond her own little sphere. Anne actually liked to pop other people’s bubble never afraid to be different. She was that girl you saw dancing around in the mall just because the song was a good one, or the girl on the side of the road kicking up the leaves. It was hard to really get to know Anne because she was rather reserved, but anyone could see that she loved to live.

I don't know how I'm remembered but I hope it will be nice, plus that I live at least fifty more years, I'd be nearly seventy then amazing what half a century could do for a person. In that time I want to see everything, learn so much more read so much more write so much more, and I want to be a mom-so at least fifty years would be nice, but then again you never know somethings you can't plan for so we shouldn't put things off. Did I mention because of this death I got to miss 3 classes? Yeah 2 of her's and then her husband's. Today take five minutes to do nothing it will likely turn into ten but sometimes its simply wonderous to squander time friviously.

New Semester, New Year, Same Anne

Because I would like to have a post that actually goes up the day I start writing it and not 2-3 weeks later. Can I just say that formating anything on this is really annoying? It never listens to be I always have to go back and fix it like 5 times before it does what I want it to. Anyone know why? Ok so this semester I have German 102-I'm really looking forward to when I have a German class that I actually learn something in again, which I am sad to report won't be untill next summer, and since I may come back with a pretty good hold on the language learning may be behind again....blarg. I'm also in the second half of book of mormon Civilizations 2, First Year Writing and Old Testament(I was in ethnic chinese dance but i decided to put that off until I can get someone to take it with me) and second block I will have a Vienna prep-class. I'm still working nights at the Wilk(BYU's student center) and I actually really like it I'm a co-supervior(a misnomer its actually an assistant-supervisor) Its funny when our Full-time supervisor asks me questions about how our crew is doing I never know anything, my supervior told Dave when he mentioned my lack of knowlege that he has a problem communicating with women and doesn't tell me anything-he really doesn't tell me anything. As for the New Year, I'm spending my summer in Vienna Austria and won't be home for an entire year, but even though I'll be broke and won't be able to see my family and friends for a while it'll really be worth it. I've made some good friends out here in Utah and plan on spending tons of time with them. Well I'm off to read Machiavelli's the Prince so I can start a paper-oh the joys of college.